Four Months in the arms of Jesus
Today marks the day that Molly went to be with Jesus just 4 months ago. We were up in Breckenridge with three of Jacob's siblings: Michael, Mark, and Kelli. Michael and Mark were unable to be here when Molly was born, so it was nice to have them out and take them by Molly's doorway for a little visit. We took her some flowers from our yard and just spent a little time by her doorway and talked to the boys about her.
"Her doorway?", you ask. Well, let me tell you all about it. I got the idea from my precious mother in love because there was a poem written about graves being a doorway cut in sod to heaven. Well... I am not doing such a hot job explaining things so I'll just let you read the poem yourself.
By: Calvin Miller
"I once scorned ev'vy fearful thought of death,
When it was but the end of pulse and breath,
But now my eyes have seen that past the pain
There is a world that's waiting to be claimed.
Earthmaker, Holy, let me now depart,
For living's such a temporary art
And dying is but getting dressed for God,
Our graves are merely doorways cut in sod."
I love to visit Molly's doorway because it reminds me of where she is and how she feels no pain and no fear. I also enjoy being near her doorway because it is the last place I was close to her physical body, part of her that I carried and nurtured for so long. I think about her physical body, which we knew for so little. Her long, delicate fingers and larger than normal feet. :) She had beautiful dark hair that was silky and smooth. Her precious lips were sweet to kiss and gaze at as she took each breath. The smooth skin all over was wonderful to touch and caress. She certainly had plenty of admirers.
We miss her and while that seems to be an understatement it also falls short of how much we love her and care for her. Words seem so silly when I try to explain the desires of my mommy heart and all the memories I have of our precious daughter. She is loved and missed more than I knew possible.
Molly, precious baby girl, you are His and in that we rest with assurance and peace. So baby let sweet Jesus hold you, till Mom and Dad can hold you.
We love you,
Mommy and Daddy
Comments
I don't really know you and you don't know me. I went to school with Samuel and just really felt urged to write to you. I don't even know how I came upon your blog. I've heard your story through Samuel's writings and friends that are involved with FBC.
I have a dear friend that experienced a similar loss a year ago. I imagine the sadness is, at times, overwhelming. My friend has since done extraordinary things called on by God. She is really a role model and I belive she would say that her marriage is also stronger than ever.
I don't have much to say, sometimes there really are no words, except my heart is breaking thinking about you and praying for you. As many have said before me, you are in my constant prayers too. God bless,
This July our beautiful firstborn son Andrew went to be with Jesus 10 days after he was born. He was born on July 14th and went to be with the Lord July 24th. We had a beautiful pregnancy and we were heartbroken when we found out his brain had lack of oxygen (or perhaps wasn't formed well- still waiting on the results), and he went through similar MRIs and scans, and was put on medication. It was a difficult 10 days, but we know God was with us every step of the way. Your blog has really helped me today and I look forward to more of your postings. I believe Jesus chose our little ones for a purpose so much bigger than we can ever imagine! It is wonderful to experience the depth of His Grace, and I look forward to the day when our hearts are filled with a new song and a new joy here on earth, and I especially look forward to spending eternity in heaven with Jesus and our babies.
Thank you,
Kathy